motherhood

these days with baby zee.

happy weekend to you!

i am about to rush off to a girls overnight at a hotel in the city as a last hurrah before i’m physically attached to a baby for a few months again, so this will be short and sweet. basically, i’m feeling great, can’t believe that there is such a short amount of time before this baby gets here, and am requesting some more prayers because my stubborn baby has once again refused to do what it’s supposed to do.

i hope everyone has a fabulous weekend, do something autumnal for me! i’ll probably be eating pizza and diet coke in a robe on a hotel bed, so i’ll live the dream for you guys too.

36 weeks baby zee

36 weeks with baby zee

how far along: 36 weeks. very pregnant.

i’m feeling: pretty great still. tired? yes. swollen? oh my goodness yes.

update on stubborn baby’s position: at my appointment this week, we couldn’t tell if baby had a bony butt or its head was up (where it’s not supposed to be). so i had an ultrasound on friday, and we confirmed what i did NOT want to hear…that baby is not head down, but is cradled quite comfortably with its bootie in my pelvis. so that means the next step is to do an external version (aka moving the baby by hand). NOT looking forward to it at all, but if this works, it is much less likely that i would need a c-section. so please keep the prayers coming.

total weight gain: you guys, i gained like 4-5 pounds in the last two weeks haha. i’m pretty sure most is fluid based on how puffy my hands and feet feel, but still. so i’m up to about 27 pounds total now, which was what my total gain was with Amelia. i’m on track (if the fluid chills out) to gain about 30 pounds, which is what i guessed at the beginning.

baby zee’s size: this week, baby is the size of a head of romaine lettuce, about 6 lbs. and 18.5 inches long.

this week: Mister Man was gone ALL WEEK LONG, which marks the last time he’ll take a long trip before baby gets here, and the last time i’ll be by myself with only one child. i tried to remind myself all week long that the next time i’m holding down the fort, there will be two kids here, and it really helped keep my perspective clear!

maternity clothes: my darling friend amy let me come over and pick out a bunch of her maternity clothes (she has a brand new squishy 2 month old and a brand new 2 year old!). the dress i’m wearing in these photos is hers, and she saved my life with these “new to me” clothes. they’re going to get me through the next few weeks with my sanity intact! thank you amy!

sleep: oh it’s bad now guys. laying down makes me kind of sore, turning over makes me kind of sore, and i’ve apparently started to snore a little bit? whatever, it’s not like i’m going to be getting any more sleep anytime soon, so might as well embrace it.

best moment this week: amelia giving my belly lots of hugs and kisses, and taking a night out at a hotel in the city with my sisters and sister-cousin for a last night of relaxation and girl time before this baby gets here. (big thanks to Mister Man for pushing me to actually do this…i love you baby daddy).

movement: slowing down a bit, but still kicking and punching and jabbing in there. we’ll see what happens when we try to move the little one…

food cravings: nothing new, but i still have an appetite, so i’m trying to eat lots of protein (hard-boiled eggs, nuts, yogurt) and fruit instead of gorging on skittles like i want to.

food aversions: nope. give me whatever and i’ll eat it.

belly button in or out: it’s totally, completely flat.

looking forward to: getting the dresser in the bedroom (i just washed all our gender neutral baby clothes and can’t believe anything could be that small…Amelia was never that small, right??), and getting the crib set up. we’re hoping next weekend is the weekend to get all of it done!

36 weeks with baby zee

[unsure how this baby could get any bigger…]

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these days with baby zee.

alas, this blog has become solely a place for me to update you guys on my pregnancy. i swear, i have the best of intentions every week to write posts (on my grandpa, on my daughter turning two, on cooking, on baby stuff that is a bit more humorous than these updates, etc.), and then all of a sudden, another week is gone and i have no posts to show for it.

to those of you who have stuck around, i very much appreciate it. i will eventually figure out how to balance my time with this fuller life of mine. in the meantime, i stand in awe of those who do it so easily, and try to take notes.

as each week passes, i get more and more excited to meet baby zee. every time i see a little squishy newborn, i think, “i get to have one of those soon!”. i’m trying to keep the sleep deprivation and diaper changes and nonstop feeding out of my head so i can focus on the squishiness of the babies. now, please enjoy these photos of my giant belly and my (hopefully) light-hearted take on what it means to be very pregnant.

34 weeks pregnant

how far along: 34 weeks. (or 42 if you ask anyone who has given me a sideways glance in the last week for some reason.)

i’m feeling: still feeling great. i’m thinking my discomfort is just waiting to kick in until the last month or so? because i honestly feel better than i should be allowed to feel at this many weeks pregnant. but i am definitely not complaining about it, i’m basically on cloud nine.

ALSO, regarding my little transverse baby: you guys must have some powerful mojo and you must have all sent it my way at once, because after doing lots of inversions and stretching, and also visiting a chiropractor who is well-versed in straightening the pelvises of pregnant ladies out, i was informed at my appointment that my doctor felt baby zee’s head DOWN in my lower belly. all the praise hands and thumbs up and toasts with the la croix!!! this takes so much stress off of me, you have no idea. no more worrying about having to get the baby turned manually (ouch!) or the potential of a c-section (at least for this reason). i’ll keep going to the chiropractor once a week until i have the baby, just to make sure everything stays in line, and i’ll keep doing inversions and posture improvement, but at least i know all is good.(if anyone wants more details on turning a transverse baby, i’m happy to share!)

total weight gain: 23 pounds. alright, looks like i’m slowing down a bit now. to be expected when this baby is taking up all the space where my food used to go!

baby zee’s size: this week, baby is the size of a cantaloupe, about 4 3/4 lbs. and 18 inches long. really, when we get to the melon and pumpkin comparisons, i can’t help but be horrified by the concept.

this week: (anyone notice i left this blank by accident last update? pregnancy brain is too real.) this week, i am starting to feel the need to nest a little bit. i’m adding one meal a week to our meal planning/grocery list to cook for the freezer, i’m planning out weird little organization projects for myself, and starting to get serious about getting the kids room ready. i didn’t really nest last time, so this is kind of fun for me!

maternity clothes: they’re just never big enough at the end. and i really, really, really do not want to buy anything else. so dresses and the only three shirts that fit it is!

sleep: it’s just not really…happening anymore. i’m up every hour either to go to the bathroom or to turn to a different side. poor Mister Man, i’m guessing he’s not getting great sleep either.

best moment this week: finding out baby was head down! so much happy dancing going on!

movement: lots and lots! baby likes to remind me that he or she is in there and is going to come out ACTIVE.

food cravings: does it count as a real craving if i have to convince myself that i crave ice cream?

food aversions: nope, but that appetite is slowly leaving me.

belly button in or out: i should honestly just post a picture of it so you guys can see how ridiculous my belly is.

looking forward to: meeting this baby! even though i still have six weeks to go…

34 weeks pregnant

[outtake/work selfie timer probs]

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these days with baby zee.

oh gosh. so i’m a few days late with this update (i’m sure you all noticed and were very very concerned about it), and i feel like it’s just a metaphor for my life right now. “the road to hell is paved with good intentions” is basically my life motto right now, if that gives you any inkling as far as how together i’m keeping it.

so, turns out the third trimester goes three times as fast with your second child. which is all great and good when it comes to getting through the discomfort quick, but not so great when it comes to everything else. there are text messages in my phone from a month ago that i haven’t responded to. so to everyone who belongs to those messages: I’M SORRY AND I’M STILL HERE AND I STILL LOVE YOU I SWEAR. we have yet to do anything to update the kids’ room, although i think all we have left to buy is a dresser to use for a changing table. so that’s something?

we are down to (less than) two months to go until we meet this new babe, and honestly, after realizing how little babies need from the first time around, other than eventually getting the room ready, and washing bottles and a few gender neutral clothes, i actually feel pretty ready? question mark? but for real, this time just feels different, like i have a handle on at least the basics of having a baby, so i know that everything will fall into place when it needs to. and i can’t wait!

32 weeks with baby zee

how far along: 32 weeks. holy moly.

i’m feeling: honestly, i still feel pretty awesome. a few aches here and there, sleep could be better (but couldn’t it always?), but overall, i am honestly feeling downright great. i am feeling a bit stressed out since my last appointment, because i found out that the baby is transverse, which just means that it’s sitting sideways in my belly, with the head on my left and the booty on my right. this is not ideal for a couple reasons; one is that now that the baby is getting bigger very quickly, there is not as much room for it to move into the right position…it should have done that by now. and two is that unless the baby moves before the birth, or during labor (which it could since this is my second baby and i’ve had a successful prior birth), transverse position means a c-section. and that would be a bummer.

so i’ve been instructed by my doctor to visit a chiropractor who is experienced in the webster technique (a known and proven technique for opening the pelvic ligaments so there is enough room for baby to turn), and to do the exercises from spinning babies. i’ve been doing the exercises and just got a referral for a chiropractor, so i’m hoping that in the next two weeks, ideally by my 34-week appointment, baby will have turned head down and all will be well. say a couple prayers and also if you have any awesome stories about turning babies late in pregnancy, send them my way please!

total weight gain: 22 pounds. last month i was at 18, so i’m still at a steady one pound a week gain. could i be any more cliche? seriously, i could not BE a more stereotypically pregnant person. as always, please remember my thoughts on pregnancy weight gain, and hold them close to your heart, because it’s important.

baby zee’s size: this week, baby is the size of a jicama, about 3 lbs. and 16 inches long. really hoping that it’s not too long to flip itself into the right position SOON.

this week: 

maternity clothes: you know it! haven’t picked out my new pjs yet, but i’m really excited for that particular purchase. i’m also starting to think ahead to post-baby. one thing i never thought about last time was how different you have to dress post-baby and while nursing. so i’m tentatively thinking about what clothes to have out and ready to go.

sleep: not great, not gonna lie. it’s hot here, and i’m just big enough to be uncomfortable in most positions. but i must be used to sleep deprivation now, so it doesn’t even bother me.

best moment this week: actually last week was too long ago, so i don’t remember anything that happened. but today, as we were driving in the car together, Amelia and i had the best chat about the baby coming. she informed me that she was excited for the baby to come out so she could hold it and change its diapers, and that she was going to share her toys with the baby and take walks with it. so now i’m basically a puddle and i cannot wait until they meet. i may not be the type to cry when i birth a child, but i am certain that i’ll be a sobbing mess when my children meet for the first time.

movement: yes. it’s starting to slow down a bit, probably because the baby is confused about all the weird exercises i’m doing to try and flip it head down. but still lots of movement all through the day. i also think that as the baby rotates, i will start to feel it less, because the movements will be more internal than they have been with the position it’s in.

food cravings: nope, the fact that i still have an appetite is amazing.

food aversions: nope, the fact that i still have an appetite is amazing.

belly button in or out: hahahaha.

looking forward to: enjoying these last few weeks as a family of three. getting everything set up as the nesting kicks in (it’ll kick in, won’t it?). basically just enjoying the end of this very fast pregnancy. i know not everyone gets to experience what i’m experiencing, and i want all of you to know that i do not take any of this for granted, not one single second.

32 weeks with baby zee

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these days with baby zee.

well hello there!

as i write this little update, i am having the most overwhelming feeling of “time flies when you’re having fun”. or in my case, when you’re pregnant with your second child. as of this week, i’m already in the third trimester. as in, there are only 12 weeks left in this pregnancy. as in, i should probably start doing some kind of (any kind of) preparation for this baby to get here.

i mean, i wasn’t the model of an adorable, nesting mother the first time around (more of an ice cream eating, resting on the couch mother), but we still managed to get the nursery painted and equipment assembled before baby’s arrival. cross your fingers we get there this time around too!

28 weeks with baby number 2
[not the MOST flattering belly photo i’ve ever taken, but there it is. i think i’m running about 2-3 weeks ahead of last time, size-wise.]

how far along: 28 weeks. how did the third trimester get here so fast?!?

i’m feeling: still pretty good. still a bit sore. definitely noticing when i have a full day of activity. for example, on monday, we had a morning park playdate, went grocery shopping, made lunch, and then during naptime i harvested the garden, washed the veggies, prepped dinner, and then i finished cooking dinner and did the dishes while Mister Man got Amelia ready for bed. by 9:30pm, i was done for, and i also woke up kind of sore this morning. so i might need to make time to get off my feet more often for the next 12 weeks. other than that, i’m all good!

total weight gain: 18 pounds. last month i was at 14, so it looks like i’m at a steady one pound a week gain. just a note to those of you who may be going through pregnancy and struggling with accepting weight gain, or those of you who may be nervous to get pregnant for that reason. i do tend to be more relaxed than most about accepting the higher numbers on the scale, because for me it is all about the health and growth of that baby. but i don’t want anyone to think that it isn’t normal to struggle a little bit with seeing that number go up each month. even me, who is in awe of my body and all it’s doing, gets a little uncomfortable as the number gest closer to 20. today was one of those uncomfortable days. but i want you to know that you don’t have to know how much you’re gaining if you don’t think you can handle it…just tell your doctor to let you know if it’s normal each appointment, and be done. my doctor made me feel better today by telling me my weight gain and blood pressure were “perfect”. and how often are we able to hear that our weight gain is perfect? never. except when we’re growing babies. so for any of you struggling, know that you’re normal, but always remind yourself that what you’re doing is more amazing than any number on a scale.

baby zee’s size: this week, baby is the size of an eggplant, about 2.25 lbs. and 14.8 inches long (except based on how jabby this baby is, it might be longer).

this week: it’s been hot as all get out here, so i’ve been trying to take it easier. i’ve also realized that both Mister Man and Amelia’s birthdays are just a few weeks away, so i started planning out both of those this week. all i know is that it’s definitely going to be low-key this year.

maternity clothes: i’m living in dresses. i may also need to invest in some stretchy shorts for the remainder of summer, because it’s been so hot! i’m starting to think about buying a new cute pair of pjs for the hospital too…almost too much fun to think about, right?

sleep: a little meh, but i can’t complain. my biggest wakeup these days is an early morning bathroom run, or if Amelia unluckily stirs and yells at us from our room.

best moment this week: Amelia and i have been having so much fun this week. she is really turning into such a special little girl, with so much personality (follow along on snapchat if you don’t believe me: hooleywithaz). i love hanging out with her. she has the best ideas, is so loving to everyone around her, and is always looking to play play play. it’s such a great reminder for me to have. so nothing super special happened, it was just a good week.

movement: as i tweeted last week, i now refer to the baby as “jabby” or “jabs”. because whoa are they all knees and elbows up in my grill. there are times where i actually have to stop what i’m doing because of the gymnastics happening inside my belly. it’s different from how active Amelia was (and believe me she never stopped moving), because this one seems to be occupying different space inside me than she did. each one is new, that is no joke.

food cravings: not a lot in the way of cravings persay, unless you guys want me to repeat how often i eat ice cream. which is a lot. (oh, p.s., i passed my 3-hour glucose test…again. might just have to go straight to that one if i have another baby.) i am getting really into canning ALL OF THE THINGS in the garden, so maybe that’s my way of nesting?

food aversions: still getting really full, really fast, mostly at the end of the day. so i try to eat big lunches and a couple protein-filled snacks throughout the day.

belly button in or out: what even is a belly button anymore guys?

looking forward to: getting the kids’ (ah!) bedroom set up to include the baby’s crib and a new dresser/changing table so we have more room for clothes. it’s such a weird thing to know there will be two of them in there eventually. baby will be sleeping in our room for a while, but their stuff being in there with Amelia is going to make it feel real. i’m so excited for them to share a room, even though i’m sure there will be challenges that come along with it.

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naps cure everything, even when they’re not yours.

you guys. yesterday was such a weird, weird day. it was the epitome of everything a monday is, but you wish it wasn’t. i haven’t had one of those days in so long, so this was really just a kick in the pants. not in a good way.

by noon, the following had happened:

  • i changed a very poopy diaper.
  • i fought with a toddler over whether or not she would eat her own cereal or her dad’s.
  • i succumbed to turning on barney at 8:30am.
  • i tipped a garbage can full of coffee grounds and coupons behind the radiator while vacuuming.
  • i dropped a cork into the coffee maker’s water well (don’t ask).
  • i dragged a cranky toddler to the grocery store (where she behaved like an angel somehow).

BY NOON.

but you know what? if there’s one thing that i’ve learned from being a mom, it’s that everything is temporary. and sometimes it’s so temporary that when you put your toddler down for a nap, everything gets better. you get all the chores done during the nap, you get a little workout from said chores, and you get a chance to sit down and eat lunch by yourself. then when your toddler wakes up 2.5 hours later, she’s magically cured of all crankiness and you have a dance party in the kitchen while waiting for daddy to come home.

i’ve experienced this so many times, but some days it’s just more apparent than others; naps cure everything, even when they’re not yours. but also if they’re yours, that’s pretty great too. naptime

(and if anyone was wondering, today was so much better. especially since it ended with popcorn, fancy blood orange soda and catching up on the bachelorette.)

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