it got away from me.

okay, so, it's official. i've officially lost hold of any free time that i used to have. and with that, i've become the worst blogger in the whole world. still doing fine at the mom and wife and daughter and friend thing (i hope), so i've got that going for me at least.but i mean there are a million other things that have to get done, and this space, although wonderful for my creative outlet and state of mind, is the first to get pushed to "later". ah, the magical "later" space, where lovely things go to die. between nursing the baby and feeding the baby and playing with the baby and trying to get the baby to nap and working and cleaning and going to weddings and showers and living my life, it just gets to be a little bit much. [oh, and i didn't even mention the pumping. you guys, i have two months left of this breastfeeding thing, and while my body loves the part where i feed the baby, it thinks it's a really funny joke when i try to get milk out of it with a pump. that's another post for another day. long story short, the whole being attached to a machine all day every day has made finding time to do anything pretty tough too.]the weird part of all this lack of free time is that i didn't even notice it until amelia started sleeping through the night the last couple weeks. firstly, thank the good Lord above for babies learning to walk, because when they burn all that extra energy, they sleep like angels. secondly, whoa have i been in that much of a cloud all this time that i didn't realize what a full night of sleep actually does for a person? it is AMAZING. and also clarity-making. now that i have any energy at all, i'm actually noticing the fact that i haven't been using a whole lot of my creative  energy lately. i'm not necessarily upset about it, just noticing it more. it's just sitting there on the shelf, staring at me, but i'm not really sure what to do about it yet.

(dressing room fun.)

i've contemplated getting more organized with this little blog of mine. i've thought about actually following through on my minimalization plans. i've even thought about trying to get on a cooking/baking/canning schedule. all stuff that means a lot to me, but for right now, is taking a backseat to the rest of life. and i know the world says that you need to take time for you, in order to be better for everyone else, but what if that just doesn't hold true for me right now? what if i'm okay with it not being about me for a little bit? i get alone time when i need it, but being with my husband and daughter when i can is so good for me. and the time is coming very soon where i won't be needed quite as much as i am now by the little one, and her independence will give me back some of mine.i'm okay waiting a few months to get my independence back.well thanks for this little word vomit session, it was fun. kinda reminds me of how this little spot started way back in 2012. anybody remember that? crickets?see you soon!

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