anxious little mondays.

yea, that photo doesn't evoke anxiousness does it? i know, it's really rather relaxing. unless you're looking at it from where i am and it represents being away from home at a time when you just NEED to be there, if not for any other reason than to just give your brain as little as possible to worry about.

i've never really had anxiety before. it's always been very easy for me to control my stress and put worries into their appropriate places in my mind. i could deal with them when i needed to, then go about my life without a care. even when i was planning my wedding, i never got that anxious, things-aren't-going-to-be-ready feeling. i'm very lucky actually.

maybe this is going to turn into one of those laments on how i'm getting older and life is more complicated, but lately, i've been feeling more anxiety than i ever have in my life. and i think i've always probably had it in certain situations, but it's never been an issue to process it appropriately. i don't feel like i'm handling it well at all anymore. it's like the feelings of worry are always at the front of my brain instead of the back, and since i've never needed to deal with it before, i'm not very well equipped to handle it.

i've taken so many stress management classes, and i know what all the tactics are to keep myself in check, but with everything coming up in our lives in the next month, i need to make a plan for myself. i know what my friend kali would say: i need to practice self-care and figure out what will work for me to manage my stress and anxiety. so maybe some meditation and quiet time needs to make an appearance in this here schedule of mine, so the frenetic pace gets stopped a bit.

who's got tips and tricks for me? besides pretending that i will wake up in july with everything in place and on the right track? is that an option?

(in other news, i'm in california until wednesday for work. so i'll be quieter on the blog front this week, but probably pretty busy on the tweets and instagrams if you care to follow along!)

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