fatherhood

william: five months old.

please read the next paragraph and laugh with me. i started writing it a month ago.

“we are getting back on track people! i really underestimated how crappy going back to work was going to be on my sleep and my energy and my life in general. but i think i’m finally out of the woods at least a little bit. in any case, i have the blogging bug back.”

hah. that was funny past erin. you thought you had things under control. but to post a monthly update, you have to take a photo… in any case, the following is what william was like between four and five months:

the thing about babies that is so great and also so terrible is that they do not keep. they just keep growing. which i love because sometimes babies are exhausting, and no amount of cute can make up for the lost sleep. but also sometimes i want to stop time and keep them just the way they are for a while longer, because the sweetest moments can be so fleeting.

[look. at. those. eyebrows. and. lashes.]

William is learning so much, so quickly, that i feel like i can’t keep up with him. every day he does some other thing he couldn’t do before, and before i know it i’ll be chasing after him in the yard with his sister. he wants to move so badly, and unlike his sister, actually tries to scoot towards the things he wants. i sense some baby proofing in our future, which we never did with Amelia, so we might be out of our league with this child. he’s the happiest baby i’ve ever had the pleasure of cuddling, so that’ll make up for any heart attacks he’s sure to give me down the line.

he rolls, and can sit up mostly unassisted, and he is already noticing us eating. like, he stares at the spoon going from the bowl to our mouths. we’ll be starting him on cereal in a few days, mostly so we can see if it helps him sleep better, sweet boy. he’s just getting too big to sleep for long stretches on milk alone. oh long stretches of sleep. i miss you.

little william: i cannot imagine life without you here now. your personality is so full of life and joy, and you delight everyone who sees you, from your dad and i, to your sister, to the checkout lady at the grocery store! thank you for being perfect little you. but maybe start to sleep through the night pretty soon, mmmkay?

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william: four months old.

oh good lord. there is nothing like going back to work and the 4-month sleep regression to knock you on your ass for a month or so, huh?

i’ll have every single one of you know that i took these photos the day after mister William turned four months old. so my intentions are so so good. my execution is so so bad. because william is already five months old. i’m planning on posting that one when he’s a year old. he’ll be five when i’m done getting around to his monthly updates…but this is my blog and i want to keep these memories here for me to look back on someday, so i’m going with the old mantra, “better late than never”.

i love that in all of the photos of William, he just exudes exactly who he is. like, this photo is William in a nutshell. smile on his face. finger in his mouth. probably waiting for his sister to come over and entertain him. he’s just a precious little ball of light, he is.

our little boy is growing up so quickly. as of four months, he was just starting to roll over, and just trying so hard to DO things. he loves watching his sister do anything, and i can tell that he is just going to worship the ground she walks on. i mean, he already does, but it’s going to be a serious love fest between the two of them. pretty soon i think that they will just entertain each other all the time and my life will just consist of kicking up my feet and eating bon-bons. PARENTING IS EASY Y’ALL.

sweet little buddy is a hard core mama’s boy. when i went back to work, he was not happy with me. and showed his displeasure by going from getting up once or twice a night to getting up three times a night like clockwork. it’s not cool. it’s adorable, but it’s not cool. i would much rather cuddle during the waking hours! but as with everything else that goes along with babies, this too shall pass. and that is what i keep saying to myself when i get so exhausted i can’t see straight…

little william: i cannot imagine life without you here now. your personality is so full of life and joy, and you delight everyone who sees you, from your dad and i, to your sister, to the checkout lady at the grocery store! thank you for being perfect little you. but maybe start to sleep through the night pretty soon, mmmkay?

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william: three months old.

ready for our typically late update on little mister william? at this rate, his one year update will be pushed back to december by the time i get to it.

oh william. you are the sunshine in our lives. all three of us; your dad, your sister and me, we are obsessed with your mood, your skills, your everything. and lucky for us, you give us all the reasons to smile. i mean, look at you, how could we not be in deep, deep love with you??

 

this next photo pretty much sums up our sweet boy’s personality. happy with whatever he’s given, and infectious in his happiness:

“oooooh! an avocado! thaaaanks!”

ten points to you and gryffindor if you know what that reference is.

between months two and three, william has come into his own in terms of his personality. he has settled into his own schedule and routine, getting up twice a night, getting up around 7:30am, staying up anywhere from 1.5 to 2 hours before wanting to be cuddled into a nap (oh, he is the BEST cuddler), and then repeating the process a few times until his bedtime at 8 or so.

now that he is developing into his own little person, i might be willing to say that he will be even more social than his sister. he loves to smile at anyone and everyone, although he reserves the biggest and best smiles for his dad and his sister. he is in love with Amelia, and once he can sit up, my parenting job will be so much easier, because i’ll just make sure he’s sitting somewhere where he can see his sister and I won’t have to worry about entertaining him. right now, he loves to be held looking out so he can see as much as he possibly can. he really is only unhappy if he can’t see enough of the people or things that interest him. 

i go back to work soon (even sooner now that this is late), and while i get worried that he isn’t even four months old, and there will be some rough spots because of that (vote for paid maternity leave for all), i know that he will be fine. he knows how to go with the flow and even though he’s a mama’s boy, he will learn to be okay without me.

little william: i’ve learned that i live for your smile, especially when it’s prefaced by your “what are you looking at?” face. i am loving this stage with you, but also am so impatient to see what type of person you will be as you grow. i’m so excited to see how you and your sister are together as you get bigger and more able to “keep up” with her. thank you for being so sweet and for bringing our family so much happiness.

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william: two months old.

little william buddy is going to be 10 weeks old on monday. but he turned two months old on christmas eve, and we shall celebrate his two-monthness, no matter how late it might be!

let’s get straight to it, shall we?

we have been enjoying the heck out of this amazing little boy the past few weeks. something happened around the 8-week mark, i’m not sure what it was. he seems to have grown into himself a little maybe? he is more at ease on his own, he enjoys laying on his playmat and playing with george the giraffe (also a favorite of his sister). he falls asleep a bit easier, still fights it like his life depends on not going to sleep, but the fights are a little shorter now. and best of all: he loves the sleep sack swaddle at night. praise sweet baby Jesus!

we’ve been getting into a little more of a routine since the 8-week mark too. you go to bed every night around 9pm, and usually (I SAID USUALLY I’M NOT GETTING COCKY UNIVERSE) gives me about 6-7 hours of him sleeping. so he eats around 3am, then again at about 6am, and will normally go back to sleep until about 8am. i get his sister ready when she gets up around 7:30am, and then he hangs out for about an hour before he eats. he now can do three hour stretches between eating, which feels so freeing to me as the source of his food. he is terrible at naps like his sister, unless i’m wearing him, so depending on our day, he usually gets a couple 45 minute naps, and then one really long afternoon nap because he has exhausted himself, or he’ll sleep on me for a couple two hour long naps and then another hour or so in the evening to tide him over. he’s honestly so happy that it hasn’t really bothered me that his naps are so sporadic right now…the little man is happy to just be with us when he’s awake!

i can’t believe that i’m over halfway done with my maternity leave. i go back february 13, and i’m already certain that it’s going to go by way too fast and i’m going to wake up and it’s going to be time to go to work again. and that might kill me. because this mom of two thing is way, way harder than i ever thought it would be. there are more days than not that i don’t get out of my pajamas, and many more days that i am much too crabby with Mister Man because i’m overtired. but the good days are full of so much good that it’s going to be hard to leave this sweet life of no schedules or long work days or missing my babies.

little william: thank you for being such a perfect addition to our family. you cannot begin to understand how amazing it has been to watch you grow in just these last couple months. your dad, your sister and i can’t wait to see how much more fun we get to have with you as you grow.

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william: one month old.

oh my poor little second child. already getting left behind because life is so crazy. this, your one month update, is already a week late, which at this point in time means that some of what you were doing last week is already old news. but you’re a trooper so i know you’ll forgive me.

william one month old

i love watching my little mister and seeing what he’s like in comparison to Amelia. because while there are a lot of similarities, in their looks and some of their habits, he is definitely his own person.

like his sister, he is one big bag of gas. unlike his sister, he handles it much better than she did. like his sister, he likes to stay awake ALL morning (from 7-11am, like clockwork), then nap through the afternoon, then howl for a while around 8pm until he eats and goes to bed around 10pm. like his sister, he’s a pretty good night sleeper, he gets up to eat but goes right back to bed. i’ve gotten a couple 5 hour stretches out of him, which is freaking fabulous. like his sister, he hated being swaddled. unlike his sister, he doesn’t seem to be very into his wubbanub, which is a bummer when trying to calm him down for sleep.

william one month old

william one month old

he started to wake up and pay more attention to everything around him a couple weeks ago, and so far, he seems to just be really chill about everything (unless he’s trying to fall asleep). i have a lot of fun with him in the morning before Amelia wakes up, and i try to spend some quality time with Amelia during his first morning nap. but i’m not going to lie, i’m kind of obsessed with when they both sleep at the same time and i get to spend an hour or two without a child or two attached to my body…

william one month old

i’ve been so grateful the last month for a baby who has just fit into our family like he’s always been here. it’s taken a bit to get the routines figured out (or you know, just thrown out the window), but i can’t imagine him not being here in the world. having William has also given me a newfound confidence in myself as a mother. there is nothing like parenting a spirited toddler while pregnant to make you feel like a failure. now that i’m on round two, i’m realizing that i do know what i’m doing, and most of the time, i’m doing a good job. i’m not constantly questioning if i’m doing the right thing, it just comes easier to me now. and that’s a gift only he could give me.

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